So I guess I can talk about it but I'm not too sure what to say. Melinda and are are splitting up. Today is moving day for her. I can't afford to move, I wish I could, but that's just the way things work out. It's going to hurt everyday to go home to the place where I thought we were happy. Where we made plans and thought about our life together. I guess that too will change and eventually it will just become a place that I live, because after today it really doesn't feel like a home.
One day you are married, in what you think is a long term commited relationship, then one day your whole life has changed. What I thought my life was going to be, where I thought I was going and who I thought I was going to do that with has changed.
I'm not too sure what to do now, where do I go from here. I'm sure I'm going to be ok but right now it hurts like hell. I think that if I weren't in school I might come unglued, but this pain in the ass that is known as Graduate School is what is keeping me together.
I just can't afford to fall apart.
Maybe I'll do that when I'm all done with school. Go off some place and sit on a beach for a while and try to figure out what the fuck happend and what all this means.
Oh yeah, beer should be involved.
